A Surprisingly Good Day

I have had a very lovely day, actually, and it was totally unexpected. I took the day off to go to a doctor appointment. Since my idiot, compulsive-liar, using/not using meth-addict ex is still lolling about the place, courtesy of my older roommate’s ill-advised, golden-hearted wishes, I decided to get the troglodyte ex drive me to the doctor’s office with the promise of lunch afterward.

The appointment was nothing, really. I just want a few vitamin levels checked out and I was in and out in about 20 minutes. The ex and I went to lunch and he bailed to L.A. — using my roommate’s truck — supposedly to go hiking and see an old friend who happens to have some things he needs for an important interview tomorrow. Regrettably, the interview is neither with a psychiatrist nor a rehab facility, but I digress.

My ex has been staying here because my roommate (who happens to be much, much older) was in poor health and needed a temporary caregiver and I have a job while my ex (through whom I met my incredibly kind and awesome roommate), has a drug habit and needs to be babysat. They could benefit from each other. (And I need to get the hell out of here, but we’ll address that later in this entry.)

After the ex bailed to L.A. (for whatever actual reasons), I decided to read and play a game (‘Salem’s Lot and Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2, if you’re curious). I also took a nap, and when I woke up, I decided to go see Captain America: Civil War which I had not yet seen. I walked in during the previews, loved every second of the movie, and left. I came home, made dinner, and watched Deadpool, which I have the Blu-ray for but didn’t get to see in the theater. Loved it. LOVED it.

I’ve been working on Saturdays, but with this being a three day weekend for the rest of my team, I then decided to take the time off.

Then I thought about some things. It was a really good day. No bullshit team at work, none of the sorrow going on at work assaulted me (I may tell about that later), the ex wasn’t moping around and lying about what he does when he supposedly goes and sees his mother (who he can’t stand) several times a week, I got to see two awesome super hero movies, I worked on my writing, I got the results of some health tests I took on Monday and am wonderfully healthy, and I am in a good place.

I have a checklist of things I need to do to get out of my horrid job and this horrid living situation and away to a good place with a good job and to, essentially, be happy (or at least give myself a chance). In the past two weeks, I have managed to whittle that list down considerably. There have been setbacks, but I have so much going on that I was able to focus on what to do next instead of what I lost. I have a long way to go — it’s why I was ranting earlier this week about beginnings being so hard — but I am at least halfway done. The rest takes time, honestly, and I have not yet mastered the alien technology needed to speed up time.

Overall, it was a good day and put me in a good place. Every step forward brings me closer to the finish line. I no longer think that it has to get darker before it gets lighter. I think that, with this amount of sustained effort, the light at the end of the forest is coming closer. Already the darkness is made lighter. And I think that there will be several more days like this — serene, happy moments on the pathway to ultimate happiness. And freedom.

What are a few rough patches compared to that amount of promise?

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~ by Darren Endymion on May 26, 2016.

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